I really don't know how this works too well, but tonight I feel like writing. I spoke with my college roomate, she and I try to remain close, life gets in the way. She is having a rough time and I wished she lived closer. My kid is teaching the neighborhood about board games. Since there is no TV watching in my house we have a closet deicated to just board games. I think I found my cousins blog tonight. I wish I had an easier time communicating with my family. The older I get the more important it is to me to know these people. I have a sister that doesn't speak to me because of my past life decisions. I can't really say I blame her. There have been times when my whiskey breath would drive away the best. My brain has been so jumbled lately. There really isn't time for much sorting out. I was reading an article on creationism and evolution. It is hard for the logical part of my brain to wrap around God and then I see rainbows over the Lake and I think, yeah yeah, it can be explained that prisms and light and moisture come together to make unique colors, but what if they were more, I think with all the stuff that life brings, good and bad, rainbows are good and smiling is good. Laughing is good, having people over for dinner is good. Cousins are good. I miss my family like something awful. I feel like I stepped out of something important. Or maybe they stepped out on me, or both. Who knows. I still miss them, I miss the loud good looking bunch.